Loneliness

What exactly is that I once asked?

Surrounded by friends, family and acquaints that seemed to care,

Once I stopped: providing entertainment, free events and asked. For help instead of giving. In excess for no apparent reason other than giving made me happy!

Loneliness; being home on a Saturday, Single. WhY? I keep asking myself is it because I am over 50? Is it because I am mot a size zero? All my friends are either over 70 or partnered? Covid has made meetings in person. Awkward?

Loneliness is something I am experiencing more and more. Not sure if I can get used it!